What’s it like for them… to meet us?
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January 17, 2012
What’s it like for them… to meet us?
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@HirokiJpn on Twitter
January 2, 2012
Strap in. This is a long story.
In 2007, when Katawa Shoujo made the leap from a 4chan thread to an “official” forum, I was one of the first people to join. Back then, apart from the admin who created the forum, all voices were equal. Every day was cacophony. It was exhilarating.
I wanted badly to be a writer, so I contributed often. Even back then, I knew that the secret to being noticed (and liked) was feedback. But I was especially interested in how we, the ex-Anonymous, would form the necessary infrastructure to develop a game. This was probably what helped me stand out the most. When the admin finally decided to put together a team — an interim government of sorts — he asked me to join. I happily accepted.
It was a disaster.
I think what we wanted, in our naïveté, was to harness “crowd creativity” for production. So at first, we held public polls for little things, like what the characters’ names would be. This was fun. But as enthusiasm waned and people wondered when some actual development would start, we bumbled and stalled. Displeasure grew. We fled to our secret team forums, and it became increasingly clear that this pseudo-democracy wasn’t going to work in the long run. The project needed a leader.
But therein lay another layer of intrigue: The team didn’t really like the forum admin. We hid it from him, of course, in the cowardly tradition of young men talking crap on the Internet. As much as we didn’t like his leadership, he seemed poised to become top dog by default. But patience was wearing thin. People were dropping out, and it looked like the whole thing was going to die.
So, my last act as a member of the Katawa Shoujo team was a coup d’état. I went behind the admin’s back, got support from the rest of the team, and publicly announced that a young firebrand named Cpl_Crud was going to be the new director of the project. I left him some words of encouragement, and then I took my leave. (The admin left me a goodbye as well. I didn’t read it.)
I haven’t followed Katawa Shoujo much since then. I understand that it’s about to be released in a couple of days. I’m happy for its success, because believe me when I say that it almost blew up in the hangar. But I still feel some shame when I see it mentioned, because it reminds me that my singular contribution to the VN world wasn’t my writing, or my ideas. It was playing Judas.
But there is one thing. One bright, little thing:
Way back, when it wasn’t even decided what the characters’ names were going to be, I gave a lot of attention to the burned girl. I thought that she should have a demure name, something a little old-fashioned – maybe even a little ironic. I pushed hard for it. And after all this time, past the long-buried mistakes of youth, I’m delighted to find that this one thing still exists. If there’s any salvation to be found for me in this whole sordid affair, it’s there.
Hanako… I gave you your name.
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Further reading
A fuller history of Katawa Shoujo‘s development, which puts the above in its proper context: A footnote, nothing more.
December 28, 2011
Continuing my musings on the Enneagram of Personality. Read the first part here.
Kobato is difficult to categorize. At fourteen, the brain’s electrochemical systems have only just started to put together the patterns that characterize adult thought. At that age, you’re still puzzling out what a personality even is. So I’d say Kobato right now is Type Four: The Individualist… But it’s less about her character than it is the character of an age.
Type Fours feel different. Nobody understands them; they see themselves as walking, unrecognized, at the precipice of love and loneliness. As you can imagine, this setup often leads to self-esteem issues. Unhealthy fours cope by indulging in a “fantasy self,” an imagined version of who they’d like to be. An aimless young man, for example, pretends that he’s a brilliant mad scientist, Hououin Kyoma. Or a little girl with no friends reinvents herself as Reisys VI Felicity Sumeragi, a noble mistress of the night.
In other words: Four is the chuunibyou type.
Akirascuro also believes in the fantasy self. But to qualify as chuunibyou proper, he says that there must be an accompanying urge to do. A case of “8th-grade-itis” requires some form of acting out, even if just the ineffectual, delusional kind: Kuroneko in OreImo threatens to use black magic against people who bully her, and Lelouch is admired in Code Geass because he uses the Power of Kings to enact precisely the revenge he’s always wanted. The common thread in Akira’s definition is motive inspiration: a spark of nerdrage as bright as the sun.
But is that really what characterizes chuunibyou? If you’ve ever known a self-absorbed middle schooler (or been one yourself — no shame in that), then you know: Awkwardness, lameness, utter uncoolness, thy name is thirteen. Indeed; the worse off you are, the more likely you are to indulge in fantasies of a unique destiny. It’s a directly negative relationship, and that’s the most important part.
Chuunibyou isn’t merely power fantasy in itself. Not even power fantasy that leads to action. It’s the tension between power fantasy and pathetic reality.
So, losers and good-for-nothings: Rejoice! Your chuunibyou is glorious.
December 12, 2011
What do our fantasies say about us? In this episode, we go deep into the rabbit hole.
This episode covers adult/mature themes. Listen at your own discretion!
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Girl Cartoons (8C)
Tsurupeta.info (mt-i)
My Sword is Unbelievably Dull (21stcenturydigitalboy)
“Lolicon: The Reality of ‘Virtual Child Pornography’ in Japan” by Patrick W. Galbraith (file: PDF)
Sound Credits
Opening (00:00 – 02:12)
“A World of My Own” (audio excerpt, Alice in Wonderland)
“Tandem-Holiday” (Heinz Kiessling)
“Black Dada” (Fantastic Plastic Machine)
Part 1: Lolita no Ai (02:13 – 13:01)
“Hajimete Shimasho” (Rizelmine OST)
“Ai no Lolita” (Nanako SOS image song)
“Tsuretete” (Boku no Pico OST)
“Dancing Star (off-vocal)” (Urusei Yatsura OST)
“Yuna Mochizuki” (junior idol video BGM)
“Neko Mimi Mode (off-vocal)” (Tsukuyomi: Moon Phase OST)
“Sekai wa Odoru yo, Kimi to. (off-vocal)” (Ikoku Meiro no Croisée OST)
“Himeji Mizuki” (Baka to Test to Shokanjuu OST)
“Cutie Honey” (GO!GO!7188 cover)
Part 2: The NEET’s Tale (13:02 – 20:12)
“Ano Ko no Kare” (Kojima Mayumi)
“Milk” (Penguin Café Orchestra)
“Fight For Your Right (To Party)” (Beastie Boys)
“Inori no Kanata (instrumental)” (Tales of Symphonia OST)
“Quiz” (Skalpel)
“This is Onii-san Essence” (audio excerpt, Imouto Jiru)
“Ii Yume Mite Ne.” (K-ON! OST)
“Future Gazer (off-vocal)” (To Aru Kagaku no Railgun OST)
Conclusion (20:13 – 21:16)
“Kaze ni Azukete” (Advantage Lucy)
December 7, 2011
Hello again, dear readers. Sorry for disappearing unannounced; sometimes reality intrudes. But let’s get right back to it!
I’m extremely skeptical of the perennial claim that anime is fading. If 2011 is anything to go by, we’re in a beautiful heyday, more satisfying in some ways than even the Akiba-kei boom of 2006-7. Creativity is in abundance. Things are good. Let’s sit back and appreciate that today, shall we?
So, without further ado, here are my picks for the ACAA, arranged by season.
Winter: Puella Magi Madoka Magica
This takes home the trophy for tight, economical storytelling. Even now, well into the age of the twelve/thirteen-episode show, most shows toddle around as if they had many more, only to crash headlong into a flaccid conclusion. Studio SHAFT didn’t waste a minute with Madoka Magica; once the ruse of the first three episodes was up, we were taken on a thrilling ride to despair and back. And at the end, like all good tragedies, there was bittersweet catharsis.
Shortlist: Hourou Musuko, Dragon Crisis!
Spring: Steins;Gate
So many adaptations crash and burn. Either that or they collapse under the weight of references to the original, a natural consequence of a market that favors hardcore fans. So Steins;Gate was a true rarity, taking its ambitious source material (conspiracies, time travel, the fate of mankind and the love of a woman — things geeks take to like a fat kid to a pudding cup) and making a TV adaptation that was faithful, thrilling, but most importantly, accessible.
Also, this.
Shortlist: Denpa Onna to Seishun Otoko, Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae wo Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai.
Summer: Usagi Drop
For characterization and scripting, Usagi Drop is certainly nothing to sneeze at, but where it really shines is its visual direction. Rin and Daikichi live in an organic environment, full of lush colors and detail. Little things, like the fact that people change outfits, do more to vivify the world than any number of gimmicky character designs. In a medium so little-known for subtlety, in Usagi Drop subtlety is king. Or queen.
Shortlist: The Idolm@ster, Mawaru Penguindrum
Fall: Boku wa Tomodachi ga Sukunai
In some ways Akirascuro did a better job of explaining why I like this show, but I’ll still give it a shot. If you look at the above image, it’s pretty much all there: Kobato the goth-fantasizer, unable to call on her dark persona when she has to deal with an overly-friendly stranger. On the other side is Sena, the socially awkward beauty, who wants to be loved like in the erogames she adores, but who doesn’t realize that she’s failing at it and making Kobato very uncomfortable.
It’s a beautiful schadenfreude. Haganai wins for characterization.
Shortlist: Un-Go, Last Exile: Fam the Silver Wing
January 24, 2012
The End
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About a week ago, I asked readers: “How has anime enriched your world?”
I got many great replies, and it was hard to narrow them down to just five. But here they are.
This is the final entry on the blog. Enjoy.
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Digibro
Anime didn’t enrich my view of the world.
It became my view of the world.
There are things that I only understand by way of anime. There are things that I can only express in Japanese; but it’s not “real” Japanese—it’s “anime Japanese.” Like an avid internet user who can’t help but use memes in daily speech, I have to stop myself in conversations to find a word that the listener can understand, because the one in my head is something only a certain kind of anime fan would know.
Language is how I define the world. It is the means by which I understand and can communicate anything. If I can only express my reaction to a thing as “UGUU~” then my entire understanding of that thing is filtered through anime.
This has gone overboard. I’ve grown distant from understanding a world outside of what anime teaches me about it. It became true that the personalities and appearances of anime characters; the way that they speak, the powers they have, and the things they say when they’re having sex were all things which were real. Reality became altered.
It was hard for me to accept. I understood reality too well. I couldn’t stop believing that the world I’d been fabricating was a separate thing from the real world. And then I realized:
I love the world that I’ve fabricated more than the world in which I’ve supposedly existed.
Now, I live in an anime world. I’m married to a five hundred year-old pink-haired woman immortalized in the body of a young girl. When we aren’t indulging in sado-masochistic fetish sex, we defend the city from supernatural creatures and team up with a child assassin and a kickboxing trap, who come over every once in a while to have action-line-intensive orgies. Every night, my wife and I watch episodes of Hidamari Sketch and K-On!!.
As we kiss, she whispers, “lycopene.” As I turn off the lights, I whisper, “sharekoube.” We stifle a laugh.
Sabas
Sasebo, Japan. I can’t believe I’ve been here for 2 years now. I don’t get to see it 75-90% of the year, but it’s “home.” I don’t think you could tell me in middle school I’d be here, but I am. I didn’t realize it then, but the stuff I watched would have an enormous impact on where I am today. I wouldn’t have the same friends, nor be where I’m at without anime.
I definitely wouldn’t have the friends I have today without anime. Videogames and books haven’t netted me as an interesting and diverse group as anime has. Even if I am fearful of the majority of con-goers, when I went to Anime Detour and Anime Expo, I still met and interacted with quite a few people I wouldn’t have met elsewhere. Twitter has been a godsend for discovering a multitude of people who I can discuss and enjoy anime with as it airs. For an introvert like me, this is a blessing. I’m able to break out of my shell and express myself to others in lovely 140 character thoughts.
It came to a shock to my high school classmates when I decided to join the military. I’m still in shock, myself. I really don’t look like the type that would pledge an oath and find myself whisked away to some distant land, but I did. I still question whether I made the right choice, but at the time, I had nowhere else to go. I lacked direction in my life, and my grades in senior year were garbage. I didn’t want to work at my parents’ store day in and day out, or so I’d convince myself. A Navy recruiter called me right around my 18th birthday. We talked a bit about video games, but guess what got my attention? He liked anime! So eventually I went down to the recruiting office and started talking about my future. What did I want to do? See the world, pay for college, and help people. Not soon after that…
It’s been 3 years in the Navy. 2 years in Japan. Do I have my days where I wish I weren’t in the military? Yeah. Do I regret being here in Japan? Well… come see me when I’m in Club Mogra on Anison night. I’ll tell you then.
Akirascuro
I’ve been around the block too many times to say that any individual anime has changed my world view. Anime no longer inspires me. I don’t watch Steins;Gate or Penguindrum and think to myself, “Aha! There’s something to be learned here.” Sure, there was a time when I looked up to characters in anime as role models— back when I was in 8th grade. I’ve long since stopped doing that. The worlds that anime characters inhabit are too rarefied, too essentialized, too fake for me to truly learn anything useful from their actions.
I’ve watched many, many series in my time. Many of them are lost to me. I struggle to name the series that I’ve watched last season— ask me what I watched three or five years ago, and nothing comes to mind. But what I do remember, very vividly, is every single experience I’ve had with other anime fans. I’ve met more than 200 people through my anime-watching. I’ve met five or six of my closest friends this way. We laugh together, drink together, brave Comiket together and create together. When I look back on my teenage years, I have no doubt that it is my “otaku” friends, and not the bullshit I did in middle school or high school, that I will remember.
For, you see, being passionate about anime shows themselves isn’t enough for me. As I grow older, my tastes will change and some of the shows I previously found enjoyable, I no longer will. At some point, I will reach an age at which I’ll find 99% of all shows boring and vapid. What then? I’d quit watching anime. I haven’t quit watching because I’m fundamentally interested in the people of anime, and as long as I continue to watch anime, I can continue to interact with others who watch anime. Otakudom is a spectacle. From avid figurine collectors to people who marry their dakimakura, from overly-friendly cosplayers to sweaty, maladjusted, mouth-breathing nerds with lisps, from belligerent, psychopathic yaoi peddlers to you and me (the everyman), otakudom contains every kind of personality imaginable. I loveinteracting with these personalities, engaging them, ridiculing them and participating in the creation of otakudom. That is my true passion.
So how has anime changed my life? It’s given me entertainment, friends, memories and much, much more. It’s opened my eyes to a whole new, insane world out there. It’s given me a platform to rant and rave about the things I find important (Hoshii Miki, etc). Otakudom is a place where it’s okay to be a little crazy. Otakudom has made me a little crazy. And that’s alright with me.
lvlln
How has being an anime fan enriched my view of the world? I can point to specific examples. Seeing FLCL as an adolescent gave me a new, I think more useful, perspective on the stage of growing up. Seeing The Tatami Galaxy as a young adult did the same kind of thing, but for a different stage of life.
But I get the sense that such specifics aren’t what you’re looking for. The most important way anime has enriched my view of the world is by exposing me to different subcultures and teaching me to accept all of them. It’s no secret that anime is a stigmatized medium, in no small part due to the many perversions that get associated with it. Guro, NTR, yaoi (heck, just plain old hentai), panty shots, to name a few of the tamer issues. I remember in high school and college thumbing my nose at even basic fanservice. But the more I got exposed to anime and interacted with its fans, the more I learned about appreciating such things for the variety they provide, regardless of their appeal to me. No matter how dirty, crass, or obscene, there is definitely SOMETHING there that makes them meaningful for someone else, and that’s great.
Maybe it’s what you call desensitization; when I hear of fetishes or subcultures that perplex or offend my peers, I just think, “huh, more power to them if that’s what they’re into.” And this extends to almost everything in life: Justin Bieber fans, Bronies, chubby chasers, gay men who want to get AIDS, a coworker who’s afraid of answering the phone, etc. I feel that I can appreciate these quirks without judgment, that I’m a more open, accepting person that before because of the anime I’ve watched and the fandom to which I’ve been exposed. Maybe this isn’t specific to anime, but to any similarly stigmatized fandom. That’s how anime has enriched my view of the world.
Renn
Two years prior, I wasn’t big on online. AIM? Call me, please. Facebook? Popularity contest. Twitter? For celebrity stalkers. Lolcats? Lolwut? Not that I could have phrased it like that back then. With regards to the web, I was out of the loop.
But anime thrives on the internet. After some friends got me hooked on the medium, the web was the logical next step. There, I learned about anime streaming, downloads, screencaps, preview clips, forums, and memes.
I thought the web was for weirdos; I was right. I just didn’t realize I was one. Because the biggest draw for me wasn’t anime watching. It was anime blogs. On blogs, I saw people much smarter and more impressive than me obsessing over these crazy cartoons. I saw people all over the world who loved, to the same extent, the same things I loved.
I had to participate on the blogs. I wanted to talk about anime. But to participate and be heard means more than just writing and streaming anime. It means learning the basics of html. It means Twitter and Instant Messenger. It means web words like “orz” are part of your lexicon. Anime was not just my key to the web. It was the pry that forced me out of my technophobe stuffiness and launched me into the modern era.
That’s not entirely a good thing. I’ve spent too many late nights gobbling blog archives and tweet logs. It’s a junk food hangover in the morning, but without the sleep involved. But I know it’s a good thing overall. I still have a lot to learn, but knowledge of social media is a necessity for today’s job market. Doesn’t hurt to have blogging on your resume these days.
And more importantly, it’s made me really happy. I’ll never neglect real life, but it’s fun to flail over hobbies online and not be judged (too harshly). It’s fun to connect with people all around world over something as simple as a late-night, Japanese cartoon.
So, how has anime enriched my life? Got me onto the Internet. Got me onto 2DT’s blog. Doesn’t get much better than that.
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A final word, before I close the doors.
Anime can be a second reality. It can be an escape, a reprieve, a haven away; Door Number One is the geeky stuff, Door Number Two is everything else, and ne’er the twain shall meet. I think that’s easy enough to do. It’s much more difficult to live in both worlds at once.
But that’s the ideal, at least for me. Visual culture – anime, manga, visual novels, everything we enjoy – can be a lens that helps us love the here and now. Of course, it isn’t easy. It takes thought, and perspective, and a willingness to shed cynicism. But we should strive for this. It’s worth striving for.
And how wonderful reality becomes then! Hobbies, entire lifestyles, friends, lovers, the precious understanding between one human being and another: All of these and more, right at our fingertips, all because we share a love for this stuff from Japan.
Our world, plus this, is beautiful, prismatic and complex: A perfect 2-D teleidoscope.
Thanks for reading.